yesterday was the worst day I have ever had in my life. DB just kept on and on about what needs doing, the the people came to pick up the composter......it was in bits and they were able to get it into their car. DB then hobbled to the kitchen door, I told him to go and sit down, took him back in, 5 minutes later he was back to the door swaying like he was drunk going on about the plastic tiles that link together to make a path, I just could not help myself, I should think they heard me in the town scream at him to go and sit down..........did he do it, no..........I waited till the people had driven away and then let hin have it with both barrels............I went to grill the gammon for tea, the grill on the combi was not working and after I had cooked the gammon in the frying pan, DB decided he could not chew it..................it was more than a red rag to a bull..............I lost it completely................. had my hand on the phone to arrange to get him a place in a home, at that moment I could quite cheerfully walk out under a bus!! I have spent over 40 years looking after him and his selfish ways......no consideration about what he is doing to my health, mental or otherwise...............I have consistantly told him the effect he is having on me........he ignored it........threats just do not work, he completely disregards them.......
I think he did get the message eventually when I ignored him until it was time to go to bed. Got him into bed, I read for a while and then put the light out, he was reading, tough luck I was tired and needed to sleep. I had taken my hearing aids out, so could not hear him chuntering.
I did manage 8 hours+, completely exhausted. This morning he is very quiet...................we will see how today pans out. I have contacted social services for a list oh local homes that have vacancies..........
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